Adventures in figuring it all out.

Explaining how these processes take place and how they change us each time is becoming harder and harder. For every moment that something positive happens, we then take a step back and have to analyze every moment. When I was sitting down with my sister it was hard to find the words that can explain how the start from inquiring to interviewing really feels. So here is what I can came up with:

When you are looking to buy a new house it starts with a website of pictures (ours is very similar because the children are listed on a site). You then read the description of the house and you keep in mind that it is telling you all of the wonderful things for you (our is similar because we got a small blurb on the children of positives). Then you view the home and get a bit more info (this comes in a form of a social summary for us that has a bit more information about the child and their history). At this point you either go ahead and start the purchasing process (Adoption) and all of the steps that follow. So when you put in the offer the agent suggests a home inspection (This would be a our formal interview). The home inspection reveals that your homes foundation is cracked (This is where we learn all of the severe issues that may present with the children that they do not tell in the initial levels). After the inspection you negotiate what you need to help fix the foundation (This is where it may be hard to follow, but we will negotiate for what levels of support and state care that will stay with our children). When you are done with inspections, it comes to the final decision of purchasing the home (Will we finally adopt these children).

So after all of that which was much quicker in person I promise, it leaves us where we are now. If we are chosen for M and M we have to make the final decision on if we are the right parents to give these amazing children everything they need to grow. It is not an easy decision and one that we have to make with and without our hearts. In the end we want everything to be perfect for them. What is truly hard about this process is that we have to decided we want to be their parents before we even know if the people in charge of their future agree. 

I have to admit that we are really trying our best to figure it out and we are still waiting to hear what the council will have to say. We are grateful for the chance to interview and even be considered for this little guys. Hopefully soon we should have some answers from all of us. October 7th is our formal interview for V. So lots for me to come in our ever growing lives.